We're in the kitchen, sitting at the table. I'm on my laptop, trying to transact a little business online, and he's looking at a travel brochure. It would be inaccurate to say he's reading it. He's looking at the pictures of Alaska.
He gets up suddenly, leaves the room, and starts going down the hallway.
"Hello? Is anybody here?" he asks.
"I'm right here!" I respond, bewildered. I'm still sitting at the table. How can he turn around and forget that I'm right there?
But he doesn't hear me or doesn't comprehend what I've said. He is now farther down the hallway.
"Is anybody home?! Where did everybody go?" He sounds anxious now.
"I'm in the kitchen, honey," I reassure him. "I haven't gone anywhere," I add as I get up from the table and head for the hallway. But he is already making his way back to where I am. He seems relieved to see me. I notice that he has turned on all the lights. The outside lights, the hallway lights, the lights in all the bedrooms and bathrooms.
"Would you like me to turn on the television for you?" I suggest.
"Yes, please," he says. He heads downstairs to the Man Cave, where he likes to watch television. But only if I sit with him. He doesn't watch by himself anymore as he used to do not that long ago.
I go back upstairs for a moment to get my laptop and to turn off the lights. I come back to the Man Cave. He is watching Blue Bloods. Sort of. He has fallen asleep. But it will only be for a moment. He will doze on and off until bedtime. And then he will sleep for a little while, get up and wander around, come back to bed, sleep for a little while, get up and wander around. Eventually, I will fall asleep, too. But not for long.
Tears. I cannot imagine what either of you are going through. You're doing an amazing thing, friend.
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